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04 May 2008 @ 07:54 pm
Really people, they rejected my post because they thought it was for my journal, when I put something to show it was Pete's blog. I sen it again, but the title didn't work. Piece of shit LJ.
30 April 2008 @ 01:49 am
I'm bored. My eye keeps itching. I have guitar tomorrow and work, which sucks because he comes late all the time, so I'll more the less be late to work which won't go well with my boss, so I'm a little worried, but whatever. I'll call if I'm going to be late, you know?
I guess today I've been rude, I told someone they failed, as a joke mind you, because they said Ashlee Simpson was their guilty pleasure. Yeah, that's really rude, whatever. People have been a lot meaner on ONTD which is where I said it. So I guess I'm the bad guy yet again.
I guess today I've been rude, I told someone they failed, as a joke mind you, because they said Ashlee Simpson was their guilty pleasure. Yeah, that's really rude, whatever. People have been a lot meaner on ONTD which is where I said it. So I guess I'm the bad guy yet again.
Current Location: My room
Current Mood: 
groggy
groggyCurrent Music: Those voices in my head are fighting again.
25 April 2008 @ 01:28 pm
They have so many stupid ass rules when you put in a post. I mean, come on. A rule, they can't be from Prez site, that's really stupid, he has a lot of stuff on there that no one else does. They ban people for no reason. They're not a good place. I'm sorry, but that's how I feel about them...assholes.
15 April 2008 @ 01:55 am
Poll #1171355 I was watching Kim on Disney and it was the episode after the second movie and they had Christy's song playing and I wanted to listen to it some. So I got the CD and put it in. Then I heard this song again and I was like, "Shit! I want to put the lyrics u
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I'm always right,
You're never wrong.
Wish that you could see the way
I see it.
I say left,
You say right.
You say day
And I say night.
You may have your dream,
But I can't be it.
So...
Don't try to change me,
Cause I'm not you.
(Chorus:)
I walked a mile in your shoes,
Learned a lot,
I was amused,
But I can't be anyone but me.
I can change what I wear,
Change the color of my hair,
But I can't be anyone but me.
If you could try to understand,
You'd see who
I really am.
I just want to make
My own decisions.
You try to make
Me someone else,
But I've got to be myself.
Don't wanna have to ask for your permission.
So...
Don't try to change me,
Because I'm not you.
(Chorus)
Now that we've
found a way to start
to be just who we are,
It doesn't have to be so hard,
Now that we've come so far.
I'm proud of you,
You're proud of me.
Together we will see
All the missing pieces of this
Wild and crazy mystery!
Oh, oh, oh,
Yeah yeah.
Yeah, I know I messed it up.
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I was watching Kim on Disney and it was the episode after the second movie and they had Christy's song playing and I wanted to listen to it some. So I got the CD and put it in. Then I heard this song again and I was like, "Shit! I want to put the lyrics up." XD I'm so old school, yo. XD I doubt anyone even remembers her.
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We never seem to get along.No.
2 (100.0%)
Yeah, I want him to be happy. 1 (50.0%)
Some what, but at the same time no. 0 (0.0%)
Do I really care? 0 (0.0%)
I'm always right,
You're never wrong.
Wish that you could see the way
I see it.
I say left,
You say right.
You say day
And I say night.
You may have your dream,
But I can't be it.
So...
Don't try to change me,
Cause I'm not you.
(Chorus:)
I walked a mile in your shoes,
Learned a lot,
I was amused,
But I can't be anyone but me.
I can change what I wear,
Change the color of my hair,
But I can't be anyone but me.
If you could try to understand,
You'd see who
I really am.
I just want to make
My own decisions.
You try to make
Me someone else,
But I've got to be myself.
Don't wanna have to ask for your permission.
So...
Don't try to change me,
Because I'm not you.
(Chorus)
Now that we've
found a way to start
to be just who we are,
It doesn't have to be so hard,
Now that we've come so far.
I'm proud of you,
You're proud of me.
Together we will see
All the missing pieces of this
Wild and crazy mystery!
Oh, oh, oh,
Yeah yeah.
Yeah, I know I messed it up.
26 February 2008 @ 10:20 am
I had this dream when I wanted to thr front of my old school as a little kid with my family. My parents had had a baby and there were these guys there from Iraq and all. My mom put the baby down and asked me to watch it, but I was busy playing with another baby. The guys killed it, they blew the baby up. Then we said something and had them come after us...but we went to the highschool. Then they told us we all had to be grandparents and if we choice not to do it, you have to commit fist suicide (Whatever that is.), or a quicky. Then I woke up and refused to fall back to sleep over that. Did a mention at the school part they shot people?
Oh and I still hate Pete.
Oh and I still hate Pete.
scared24 February 2008 @ 10:49 pm
I wish I never liked Fall Out Boy. I wish I never heard of them! I hate Pete. He's such a fucking attention whore! He doesn't see how Ashlee is trying to use him! She's just trying to get fame from him and now they're having a fucking baby! I mean, I thought he would have saw it, but now he's too fucking stupid to see what the hell did he! I can't like him! I can't listen to them anymore! I can't see them! I can't do anything that has them in it! I was so happy to think that maybe, just maybe I could like someone who was really cool and smart...but, I was wrong.
All he cares about is Ashlee and not his fans or friends, even when it's easy to see that she just wants him for his fame...sadly I doubt I can like him ever again. Sorry for the fans of him.
All he cares about is Ashlee and not his fans or friends, even when it's easy to see that she just wants him for his fame...sadly I doubt I can like him ever again. Sorry for the fans of him.
21 February 2008 @ 04:38 pm
When you love someone and they break your heart, don't give up on love have faith restart.
I'm kind of out of it and I don't know why. Yet again, that weird wave of depression came over me a few seconds ago and nothing happened. I'm just kind of like..."I hate this." and all shit. I hate it, really I do. I want to get better, but everyone says I am, but I'm not. It sucks because no one fully gets me and my fucked up head. I want that one person to come up soon so I know they're there, but they're not there because there isn't someone. I just can't this alone anymore. I'm fighting a battle that I can't win. It's turning in to a war with my body. My heart and head, my heart is losing and my head is winning, by so much. My life isn't working out, it's keeping me up at night and it makes me want to die.
I got my sister in trouble because we can't have more then one pop today and we can't eat in our rooms, so she was trying to do both. My mom told her not to do it, so while I'm eating she comes out and starts watching that Ashlee Simpson video that proves to all of us she is really crazy. It's sad what she does try to upset me. I mean, really. Come on, I knew she was going to do it before she even did it. She needs to find something else.
Yes, this stuff is still getting to me, she won't stop. I know I shouldn't fight back, but I'm thinking it's all I got left now since she won't listen to me. Or maybe I should talk to my mom about going to therapy again. I don't know anymore, but I can't take my sister much longer. I mean, she makes me feel like I'm worthless and I can't do anything. Or just makes me feel like I'm a total mistake to this whole family and they'd be better off without me. Last night she said that she wished our parents stopped at her and didn't even have me, then her life would be better.
I'm kind of out of it and I don't know why. Yet again, that weird wave of depression came over me a few seconds ago and nothing happened. I'm just kind of like..."I hate this." and all shit. I hate it, really I do. I want to get better, but everyone says I am, but I'm not. It sucks because no one fully gets me and my fucked up head. I want that one person to come up soon so I know they're there, but they're not there because there isn't someone. I just can't this alone anymore. I'm fighting a battle that I can't win. It's turning in to a war with my body. My heart and head, my heart is losing and my head is winning, by so much. My life isn't working out, it's keeping me up at night and it makes me want to die.
I got my sister in trouble because we can't have more then one pop today and we can't eat in our rooms, so she was trying to do both. My mom told her not to do it, so while I'm eating she comes out and starts watching that Ashlee Simpson video that proves to all of us she is really crazy. It's sad what she does try to upset me. I mean, really. Come on, I knew she was going to do it before she even did it. She needs to find something else.
Yes, this stuff is still getting to me, she won't stop. I know I shouldn't fight back, but I'm thinking it's all I got left now since she won't listen to me. Or maybe I should talk to my mom about going to therapy again. I don't know anymore, but I can't take my sister much longer. I mean, she makes me feel like I'm worthless and I can't do anything. Or just makes me feel like I'm a total mistake to this whole family and they'd be better off without me. Last night she said that she wished our parents stopped at her and didn't even have me, then her life would be better.
07 February 2008 @ 09:11 pm
He alway does this, he gets on, talks to me and when I have something good to say leaves me. I'm so sick of him doing this to me. It's a fucking waste to me, really it is. What's the point in caring so much of him when he doesn't care about me? He keeps saying how bad he feels but he doesn't get how bad I feel? I mean, it's so fucking stupid, I hate him!
Current Location: My room
Current Mood: 
rejected
rejectedCurrent Music: Panic at the Disco - Nine in the afternoon
06 February 2008 @ 06:25 pm
He manged to upset me even more, the guy who turned me down before sent me another message. "Yeah, I know I hurt you....and that you like me....That's why I feel bad..Because I hurt your feelings....I always do that to people...Especially you....You know, I like you, and you REALLY are awesome....I just like the thought that we would never be able to see eachother, and we live so far away from eachother....I know I'm an ass, and that you are hurt because I said that, and because I'm saying this now....I'm sorry I'm such a horrible person to you....I really am..."
I told him I didn't think I could talk to him right now because I was upset, he got pissed at me.
I told him I didn't think I could talk to him right now because I was upset, he got pissed at me.
05 February 2008 @ 07:41 pm
I told the guy I liked him awhile ago and he said he liked me too, we act like we're dating, so I asked him if we were and he said this.
"I'm not really sure....I haven't really thought of it like dating...More like close friends, that are on the verge of dating....I'm a really huggy and caring guy to people I like, even guys...But, I mean, I don't want you to think I don't like you or anything...I just haven't really...I don't know...I feel like I'm being an ass.....-crawls out from bed, and runs under another- I feel bad now....-frowns-"
Talk about being rejected badly. Now he's gonna be weird around me and I don't want that.
"I'm not really sure....I haven't really thought of it like dating...More like close friends, that are on the verge of dating....I'm a really huggy and caring guy to people I like, even guys...But, I mean, I don't want you to think I don't like you or anything...I just haven't really...I don't know...I feel like I'm being an ass.....-crawls out from bed, and runs under another- I feel bad now....-frowns-"
Talk about being rejected badly. Now he's gonna be weird around me and I don't want that.
29 January 2008 @ 01:00 pm
My parents STILL haven't talked about the job and it's been like three days. They keep making up some fucking excuses to why they can't talk or whatever. I swear, if they don't fucking talk soon, I'm not gonna talk to them. They always so this to me, it takes them like a week to shut the fuck up and talk about what I need to have talked about, it's so annoying.
And my parents said I could get this job I wanted so badly, but then pretty much discouraged me because they said all this nasty shit.
And my parents said I could get this job I wanted so badly, but then pretty much discouraged me because they said all this nasty shit.
26 January 2008 @ 09:35 pm
My dad is being a pain in my ass, watched a movie when I wanted to watch TV. He watched a movie he's seen over and over and loves, but won't buy it. So, I was here talking with friends and then he finished up, I went out when he was done and then he asked if I wanted TV, but I said no, so he went off somewhere. I was about to play a game and then he'd standing there watching TV. I asked why he was watching when he said he wasn't, he said he didn't say that. Then he like snapped at me and said I had to make up my mind. I came into my room and said, "I'm gonna stay in my room." and then he mumbled, "Yeah, that's right, be anti-social." I'm sick of heating that from him. That's always what he says towards me, when I'm not that anti-social, he never wants to do anything with us. Like we played a game last night and he got mad because he lost, so he got all pissy at us.
Plus, I got my Pete plushie today.
Plus, I got my Pete plushie today.
Current Location: My room
Current Mood: 
angry and annoyed
angry and annoyedCurrent Music: Grenade jumper - Fall Out Boy
18 January 2008 @ 02:47 pm
I am the worst liar I know.
I can't spend enough time trying to figure out what's going on. I'm not happy about becoming a year old when I think about it. I mean, it's kind of cool, but not at the same time. It's just life, you know?
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We play the sounds you love to hate.
We love to hate you.
Put the rock on signs in the air.
Yell the words you love at the top of your lungs.
Scream the name of the person you hate.
We're just the type of people you love to hate.
We're the band who has no name.
Just a slight change of sarcasm or pain.
The world still pays for the one's who can't sing.
The ones who make your ears bleed.
We all know the kid behind the hat and the kid behind the hair.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We play the sounds you love to hate.
We love to hate you.
You're the person behind the mask and the kid behind the chance.
You have no say in what we play.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
I can't spend enough time trying to figure out what's going on. I'm not happy about becoming a year old when I think about it. I mean, it's kind of cool, but not at the same time. It's just life, you know?
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We play the sounds you love to hate.
We love to hate you.
Put the rock on signs in the air.
Yell the words you love at the top of your lungs.
Scream the name of the person you hate.
We're just the type of people you love to hate.
We're the band who has no name.
Just a slight change of sarcasm or pain.
The world still pays for the one's who can't sing.
The ones who make your ears bleed.
We all know the kid behind the hat and the kid behind the hair.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We play the sounds you love to hate.
We love to hate you.
You're the person behind the mask and the kid behind the chance.
You have no say in what we play.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
We're slightly sarcastic with a lot of pain.
calm15 December 2007 @ 02:38 am
Just 'cause you cut me to the bone.
There's not much to say today. GG is still in the hospital and mom's gonna visit her. I might hang out with me grounded friend, but I don't know, I'll update soon.
God, here comes my sister again getting whatever the fuck she wants. I was gonna hang out with Val, or try to anyways, but if her parents can't drive her, we're not going to have a car because Mesa has to drive herself to work and mom's going to the hospital. I told Mesa this and she said she'd have mom drive her, this is so unfair.
My sister hit a car and she called us at home, now everyone is freaking out and yelling at me.
Turns out, she really only bump the person. Stupid thing is, she gave the lady her state ID. Now the lady has all the crap in her, plus her home number and cell number.
Current Location: My room.
Current Mood: bitchy
bitchyCurrent Music: The King of Wishful thinking - New Found Glory Ft. Patrick Stump(h)
26 November 2007 @ 07:21 pm
Please understand this isn't just good-bye this is I can't stand you.
Life is passing by
Twisting and turning
Coming to a dead end
Wasting time figuring out things
Finding out it was all a lie
The car crashes and no body is found
Searching for the answer
Counting down
Passing by a house with no lights on
Watching people as they walk on by
Knowing that there was one more thing left behind
Phone ringing like crazy
No one important on the line
Calls for everyone else
And notice....you're the one left behind
Listening to the kids laugh and play
Knowing that they'll grow up some day
Half of them finding out....life isn't so easy
We've seen it all from here to there
The one thing we'll never know is....
Life is passing by
Twisting and turning
Coming to a dead end
Wasting time figuring out things
Finding out it was all a lie
The car crashes and no body is found
Searching for the answer
Counting down
Passing by a house with no lights on
Watching people as they walk on by
Knowing that there was one more thing left behind
Phone ringing like crazy
No one important on the line
Calls for everyone else
And notice....you're the one left behind
Listening to the kids laugh and play
Knowing that they'll grow up some day
Half of them finding out....life isn't so easy
We've seen it all from here to there
The one thing we'll never know is....
Current Mood: depressed
depressedCurrent Music: We've got a big mess on out hands - The Academy is....
10 November 2007 @ 07:04 pm
I'll admit, I came here with a lot of problems, mainly family. We had to eat dinner together and that always starts fights, my dad started making fun of me because of the way my hair is. It covers one of my eyes, so then he made fun of the way I tickle people. Once we were done, he gave our dog some food, but made her wait. He was being a jerk to her and pretty much messing with her while she was waiting. He does this everytime we do something together. I thought today was going to be great because I had a new friend come over...but that turned out pretty good. My dad is just making today so bad for me, he does this all the time. I'm sick of it. I can't talk to him about it because he always gets mad and when he gets mad he turns the net off on me. It's always his way or no way.
08 November 2007 @ 11:05 pm
My best friend is having some problems with being in a relationship, she wants to be in one badly...before she logged off she said there was someone who loved me because before I said I've never had someone who loved me, as dating and all, I found her on another site I'm always on...I found out that she has feelings for me. That she wants to date me...but she's been my best friend and I don't think I can do it, but I don't want to hurt her. Plus, I want someone who loves music, wants to go to concerts, and all that stuff as much as I do...plus I can't even date yet, I have to be 16. I'm not sure if i like her like that...what do I do? We've been for nine years...I don't want to mess it up, my friend said we wouldn't....please help me.
confused06 November 2007 @ 11:17 pm
My sister had to go to work and....my has to go with her 'casue she doesn't have her liscen or however you spell it yet....they left without telling....me....I've been crying and I was sitting in my room...then I saw lights so I looked outside and they were drving away, my dad's not home yet from work...but they left me without telling me....
"That's why I'm bringing sexy back. I'm Lil' Chris, I wear a stupid hat." Look up Lil' Chris doing Sexyback, it's really funny, I swear.
My finger is killing me, my pinky anyways, we have no clue what I do...but I can't play my guitar at all which sucks because tomorrow I have my teacher coming over....I can't cancel, I've missed three weeks.
05 November 2007 @ 09:25 pm
And I know how to save a life.
These past days have got harder on me each second that passes. Youtube has so many videos for people who have past away and seeing them...all these people that have died from car crashes, drunks, being stabbed, whatever....it just hurts...I mean...it still started when I saw a video for Anna Svidersky awhile ago, I watched some again...it just hit me...these people have lost so much because of someone stupid. Everyone who loses someone...knows it hurts....but it hurts more when you know you'll never see them again....a day hasn't past when I wish I could help these people and bring back the person they love. I sit here wanting to kill myself because I get upset and there are people who had their kids die and want them back...why do I have to be the one living and not them? Why should I be the one living when they shouldn't? Where does it say I have that right? I feel like such a bad person now....these kids...these people...they had a right to live and not have been killed the way they did. One girl got hit by a drunken driver on the 1st of December 2006 while she was in the car I think with her parents....she was only 13. Anna was stabbed at work when she was trying to get money for her family...she was going to turn 18 in six days...she died I think right away....those fucking people should have been the ones to die....not the Anna or Kylie....I never knew them...but I wish I did. Everytime I hear something like this or see a video for it...it really gets me upset...I can't stop crying...I guess maybe because it hits close to home...I haven't had anyone die that way...but my grandpa died because of cancer and he was the closet thing to me. The doctors didn't get it all...so he died...this past year...it'd been upsetting me so much.I feel so bad for the friends and family of these kids. My heart goes out to those people...so much. When I first saw the stuff on Anna, I wanted to know more...so I watched some videos...I cried my dad came in and saw me crying. After I told him why he told me not to worry about it so much...how can I not worry? I don't know what else to say about this....but....I mean...it's just so upsetting. If one more person tells me to not to worry about it or that it doesn't matter...then...well...you know what? It does matter...a lot to me. They don't understand how much it hurts me...."I can't live. I can''t breath unless you do this with me."
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She's gets the better treatment.
My sister is going to get her ears done a second time, like my friend Val has. They says she gets it because I got chained pants. They were 12 dollars and I promised not to do anything else like that. I can't dye my hair, I can't get my lip done, I can't get any more chained pants, it's not fair. I buy my stuff. I wanna dye my hair, it's not fair!
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Home schooling...sucks right now.
My therapist told my parents I need to get out more, so my parents are making me pick which of the four stupid home school things I want to do. I'll do ice skating, but I'm not bowling or going to open gym. Bowling I'd have to be with the brats who are sore losers and when win rub it in your face. I hate open gym, because all they play is soccer. I can do that here and have more fun. I don't wanna go.
My grandmother pretty much threatened my mother to make her make us go to Thanksgiving. We were going to have a Thanksgiving at the house, just the four of us and maybe so see a movie, but no. Now, I'm stuck staying at a house with people who piss me off. I mean, I'm not even dressing up, then cane deal with me in my street clothes because I'm not wearing a dress. My chain pants, eyeliner, sneakers, maybe an FOB or nightmare shirt, that's all you get.
My grandmother pretty much threatened my mother to make her make us go to Thanksgiving. We were going to have a Thanksgiving at the house, just the four of us and maybe so see a movie, but no. Now, I'm stuck staying at a house with people who piss me off. I mean, I'm not even dressing up, then cane deal with me in my street clothes because I'm not wearing a dress. My chain pants, eyeliner, sneakers, maybe an FOB or nightmare shirt, that's all you get.